This Ain't No Mediocre Happy

It takes some time of being marginally happy to recognize the value of being truly happy. I mean I've been doing well, have a great job, a fabulous family, and every right to be content. But there was something missing, and I knew it was missing.

After many failed attempts, I have finally found someone that appears to be above reproach. He's sweet, and makes me feel like a million bucks. He isn't all about the booty, and has the utmost respect for me and my family. Even though things are really new - I see a substance with this man. He's a man of few words, a manly man, the kind that doesn't talk about how he feels all the time. But nonetheless, I can absolutely see how he feels about me. It's not just in the flowers, CDs and/or chocolates that he unfailingly presents to me each time I see him, it's somewhere in his eyes. As though I may as well be the centre of his universe. I'm not just a pretty face to him, I'm a person, someone that he wants to spend all his time with, even if we're just sitting on the couch watching TV. Even if that was ALL we ever did.

Ok, so the point, which I knew I would get there eventually, is that for the first time in a long time I am truly happy. There is not a single thing that I would change about what's going on right now. I wake up and I feel happiness. My soul is not continuously lamenting the void that used to be in it. And more importantly and perhaps for the first time in my life, I feel as though I've earned this happiness, and maybe, just maybe it may stay awhile.

List Addition

It's a new year, and I think it's time for a new attitude, so this year is all about learning to be more independent of everyone. Seems like whenever I rely on someone else to help me achieve something, I get let down, so no more relying on other people, I'm just gonna do things myself.

This new attitude is brought to you by the letter F and U! LOL!

So, inspired by this new resolve, I've made the following addition to my list and I'm planning on achieving this goal this year!

• Finish learning Spanish
  
• Learn another language (like Mandarin, or Japanese)
• Visit all 5 major continents (so far, I've never left North America):
• See Cairo (Egypt, Africa)
• See Paris (France, Europe)
• See Dubai (UAE, Asia)
• See Rio (Brazil, South America)
• Participate in a group Guinness world record breaking event - November 9, 2006
  
• Break or set my own Guinness world record
• Be on television - First air date: November 20, 2006 NEW!!!!
• Visit my sponsored World Vision Child
  
• Learn how to flamenco dance
• Get a tattoo - October 7, 2006
  
• Ride on the back of a motorcycle
• Learn to play the guitar
• Write "The Book"
• Skinny dip under a full moon
• Own one pair each of: Manolo Blahnik, Jimmy Choo, and Christian Louboutin shoes
• Buy a house -- NEW --
  

Happy 2007!

So it's a new year! And I'm hoping that lucky 2007 will be a good year for me! I spent New Years Eve on a fabulous date and rang in the new year in style! They say whatever you do on New Years you do for the rest of the year, so I'm looking forward to a full year of having fun! I guess the whole point of this post is to put up my NYR: New Year's Resolution, so here it is:

Shae's NYR for 2007: Be more assertive. Especially when it comes to how I'm treated by people I care about. I have no problem stating what it is that I want from strangers, but once I have feelings invested in someone, I find I'm never able to quite say what's on my mind if I think it will hurt them. But then, they just end up hurting me. So this year, I'm going to learn how to articulate what I want and what I think to the people who actually matter to me.

So, if you actually know me personally, you might be hearing a lot of: "I hope this doesn't offend you." Sorry!